First, my uncle-in-law had triple by-pass surgery and while they were performing the surgery they realized his heart was only pumping at 5%. The doctor told my aunt-in-law to say her prayers. Thank goodness God didn't think it was time for him to go. He made a full recovery and is doing very well.
Next, my life changing experience. As I've posted her, we lost our baby in May 2010 - after it was determined that I had a tubal pregnancy that ruptured. The blessing was that I was in great hands during the surgery and they were able to keep my ovary. It was also a blessing that I was able to recover (at least physically) quickly.
Finally, in August my mom became very ill. A routine surgery (gallbladder removal) turned into so much more. She is a feisty woman and appeared to come out of the surgery well. The surgeon said her gallbladder was pretty inflamed (which is why the surgery took a bit longer than expected) but he didn't anticipate any issues. We went home about 9 hours later, only to end up back in the ER less than 24 hours later. Long story short - she was admitted to the hospital and after a few days it was discovered she had pnemonia and the words that scared me to death - congestive heart failure! She was in the hospital for 10 days and I stayed in her room 6 of those nights. She was on a BiPap machine and I was very afraid of the prognosis. However, I did feel that she was in good hands and was optimistic that she would make a full recovery. She is doing much better - however, we are still dealing with high liver function tests, which they feel is because she has two gallstones that snuck out and haven't passed on their own.
So here we are... 2011.... blood tests this morning were devastating to both myself and my mom. She still have high liver function results.... and we aren't pregnant :-(
I know that everyone has struggles and you can either give up or move forward. I'm hopeful that this year will bring health and happiness to all around me. It's been such a struggle and at times I find myself in tears and there is nothing anyone can say to me to take the pain away. I am a fighter and am not ready to give up on OUR journey. I know at some point I will need to give-up - but that really isn't in my nature. I ask God everyday to watch over me and help me become the mom that I've always want to be. I know I've shown my determination and I KNOW that we will be the best parents :-)
This first day of 2011 wasn't a good one - but I still optimistic that 2011 will bring me my wish!
God - I know you are there listening and watching over me
